This is getting serious...
I feel as if I am on the verge of a shift, a shift in my being, a shift in my life. I suppose infertility has brought me to the place I am today, although I have been on a spiritual path for a few years now.
It started back in 2005 when I found myself teaching in an inner city school with no real experience other than student teaching in an all white suburban school. I thought I was going to be like Michelle Pfeiffer's character in Dangerous Minds, except for me there would be no happy ending.
To deal with the daily struggle of feeling inadequate, I began attending a meditation class at InVision. This would be the beginning of my spiritual journey.
It is funny how much you learn and grow when you are going through a rough patch in your life. How often do you decide to make life changes when everything is going perfectly?
I converted to Catholism in 2003. I had been attending church with my husband, then boyfriend every week for eight years. I felt like it was the right thing to do and no longer feeling a connection to the Lutheran church I attended as a child, I wanted to be married in his church.
Now, praying for a conception miracle, but realistically looking towards IVF as our only means by which to have a child, I am reassessing my choice to be a Catholic. I am exploring my spirituality without the constructs of the Catholic church. What is my personal relationship with God and how will that relationship play out in my life?
It started back in 2005 when I found myself teaching in an inner city school with no real experience other than student teaching in an all white suburban school. I thought I was going to be like Michelle Pfeiffer's character in Dangerous Minds, except for me there would be no happy ending.
To deal with the daily struggle of feeling inadequate, I began attending a meditation class at InVision. This would be the beginning of my spiritual journey.
It is funny how much you learn and grow when you are going through a rough patch in your life. How often do you decide to make life changes when everything is going perfectly?
I converted to Catholism in 2003. I had been attending church with my husband, then boyfriend every week for eight years. I felt like it was the right thing to do and no longer feeling a connection to the Lutheran church I attended as a child, I wanted to be married in his church.
Now, praying for a conception miracle, but realistically looking towards IVF as our only means by which to have a child, I am reassessing my choice to be a Catholic. I am exploring my spirituality without the constructs of the Catholic church. What is my personal relationship with God and how will that relationship play out in my life?
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