Renewed Hope

Another negative pregnancy test and I feel like my period will be coming shortly, but I have renewed hope after reading Julia Indichova's book Inconceivable. I wanted to believe that one can heal themselves and get pregnant naturally and this book gave me that hope.

I went on Julia's website, purchase her other book and a couple CDs and I plan on taking her phone courses. It is refreshing to know there are others out there who are thinking like me.

Continued Struggle...

I am having a very difficult time. I am having trouble believing that IVF is the only way for me to conceive. I want to believe that if I eat the right foods and do the right things that I will conceive without assistance. To conceive naturally is the number one goal I wrote down when I started putting Edwene Gaines' ideas into practice in January. Write down your goals, say them daily, tithe, meditate. I feel like I am getting good guidance from a higher power - like that to clean up my diet. I just don't know where to go from here. Do I just keep waiting? With every passing month, I lose more hope that I will conceive naturally and how do I let go of this strangle hold that I have on my wanting of a child. How long do I hope and wait trying to "conceive naturally"?

All Done!

I finished the Quantum Wellness Cleanse 13 lbs lighter and I couldn't be happier. Of course, I am still not preggers, but all in good time I suppose. I ate well for 3 whole weeks and I saw magnificent results. My pants are even too big - so nice to see.

I am still eating vegan and staying away from added sugars. I have added back in gluten and seem to be tolerating it well. I think my real problem was sugar and overeating. It is very challenging to overeat healthy food because I seem to be filled up on them so fast. Now I need to add back in the exercise so I continue to see results. Eating right and exercising. This may be difficult.

A Vegan Life for Me

I will be starting the 3rd week of my cleanse on Monday. The first week was really motivating because I was dropping some serious poundage. I ended up losing 7 lbs in 7 days. I haven’t lost anything since taking off that initial weight, but I am really pleased with how the cleanse is going.

I think I want to continue this vegan thing after I finish with the 21 days. In fact the only thing I’d want to add back into my diet would be the gluten. Staying gluten free is really a challenge and it is more important for me to stay away from animal products and sugar. Eating a healthy diet, also helps keep you more in tune with your intuition which is something I am striving for right now.

Ohh, I just had some salad dressing with added sugar. Now watch me bounce against the walls.

A New Day Has Come

Well... the test was negative. Not really a big surprise as I have been staring at negative tests every month for over a year now. While I was okay with the result and there were limited tears, I wanted to drown my sorrows in Corner Bakery syrup. After eating every last bite of their baked french toast with bacon and sucking down a chai tea latte, I felt so sick. Then I immediately thought, "What the hell am I doing to myself? I need to detox." After some internet research,(isn't that how it's done these days?) I came across an Oprah approved detox called the Quantum Wellness Cleanse. It asks you to give up what the author calls the Big 5; animal products, gluten, sugar, caffeine and alcohol. Not being a big veggie eater, my entire diet is the Big 5. For 21 days, I can do it and who knows? Maybe it'll help me conceive.

Shopping last night was a challenge. I went to Whole Foods to pick up some vegan, gluten free, sugar free items and it was very difficult. I would find things that were vegan, but not gluten free, or gluten free but not vegan, or gluten free and vegan but has sugar. I was also shocked and appalled to learn that gluten free bread was $8 a loaf. For reals? That's ridiculous.

I left Whole Foods $50 lighter with some staples that will be good for me throughout my detox - like frozen waffles and soups for lunch. I am off to a pretty good start today, but I am starving now that it is just about lunch time. For breakfast, I had Amy's Cream of Rice cereal bowl with sliced almonds and raisins sprinkled on top. Amy's products were really easy to read to tell if they were vegan or gluten free. Thanks, Amy! For lunch, I will have some soup and these very interesting looking crackers.

After work, I am going to go to Wal-Mart to do the rest of my shopping. The key will be keeping enough healthy foods on hand so I don't go hungry and around 4PM being able to push through those sugar cravings.